Sunday, 25 June 2017

The Ramadhan LOVE

"Allahuakbar Allahuakbar..." The echo of Azan for breaking fast time today embarks the official end of Ramadhan this year (24/6/2017). My heart sank. The month of mercy and forgiveness has officially left us. The month that I can count on for me to seek for more forgiveness than usual, to look forward for laylatulqadr, and to be at the state where I feel the closest to Allah.

This year, Ramadhan has been a little bit different for me.  It taught me something more than the previous years ever did.

On the first day of Ramadhan this year, I didn't know what I was actually really looking forward to. I wasn't even so excited to celebrate it. But I was actually looking for something. Something that would take me to another level of a person I can be, someone better, someone who acknowledges the beauty of this holy month, someone who understands more about Islam, and someone who yearns for Allah's love even more. Yes. That's actually what I wanted.

But I had no idea what should I do. I didn't even have official list of Ramadhan goals. But I kept one thing in mind -- I wanted to do my best. I wanted to be close to Allah as much as possible.

Our/My Ramadhan journey surely has its ups and downs. I struggled a lot to be someone who is more patient, more forgiving and more kind. On the other hand, I encountered so so so many blessings and beautiful truth about the world of my surrounding.

As far as I could remember, this Ramadhan taught me :

1) To be a better example of a Muslim to those who do not understand and/or misunderstand  the practice and faith in Islam.

2) To be someone who understands that us, humans came from different background, different experiences, and different personality and then only would we understand why they act in a way that is uncomfortable and unfamiliar to us. (and ... I am still struggling with this) :(

3) To put effort in "progressing" than seeking for "perfection". Ultimately in worshipping Allah through both wajib and sunnah practices.

I was and still moved with the experiences that came to teach me and three of them are as above. They took me back to my intention on the first day of Ramadhan -- to do my very best. and to be closest to Allah as possible.  He gave me experiences that made me think and reflect a lot. Although they are not necessarily sweet experiences, but the way the experiences slapped me on my face or gave butterflies in my stomach are nothing compared to the outcome of them, to help me grow and change my thinking.

Now that Ramadhan left with lessons for me to learn, may all of us could put effort and remain steadfast in doing our best to be a better version of a human and ultimately, a Muslim. :)

And.. thank you Allah for the Ramadhan love. You love us so much that you heard me, even when I didn't ask things from You verbally :)

(Photo of my favourite mosque of the decade : Masjid Cyberjaya)

Celebrating the arrival of Syawal, the victory month of Muslims, I sincerely apologise for any wrongdoings from the bottom of my heart. May Allah blesses all of us, accepted our deeds throughout the Ramadhan, and take us again to next Ramadhan. Amin!

p/s : Currently sleepy but insisted in posting this entry hence a short one. Thanks for reading!

Sunday, 18 June 2017

Breathing new air

After the second week of being employed, I have had a coooolllll 2 weeks of my life already. The newcomers including me, went through an induction on the first day and soon after that, we were brought to our desks! You've no idea how exhilarating it was for me to see a desk with my name on it. The feeling of finally having a job and a project to handle... we were dedicated a big and meaningful project to do. Everybody in the office is doing the same project, just by different roles and obligations. In the one space of office, we are one big family, and we are a team.

The moment I stepped into the office, the situation in the office was as lively as night market, with voices coming from every angle of the room. But sometimes at one moment, suddenly the office turns as quiet as exam hall hahaha. Most of them are men in the room. It's no surprise to me as I know which industry I'm in right now. The existence of me and my friends added around 5% of female in the room? Hahaha.

For this project, we'll all be placed on site. I know the impression that I'm gonna get as one of the five female in the room. Being a junior QS, with my sometimes-soft-and-feminine look, one of the few malays (and muslims), am I good enough to contribute for this project? Hahaha.

(picture courtesy from Google)

Maybe I'm wrong, but MAYBE (just maybe) some of the people would underestimate me, because I look small, young and inexperienced. But hell yeah, I am so going to prove them wrong. What makes them think only men (or older and more experienced people) could do well in this industry? In their eyes, I might look soft and naive, but think before you realize what actually my brain, hands (and heart) can do. *grins* Hmmm just motivating myself right here haha.

  (picture courtesy from Google)

Guys, if you're millennials and currently reading this,  as soon as you get your job, you'd have to always be positive in whatever position you're in, and however much salary you're being paid. But of course, you ALWAYS have to understand and aware of your rights as employees and as humans. Don't be too calculative of your time and effort, but always be brave and strong that don't let the superiors bully you and let you down.

In our 20s, it's time for us to learn, to sacrifice, and essentially, to GROW as much as you can, be it mentally or physically, build your networks and nurture relationships that bring out the best in you.

Definitely I'm so excited for my career and can't further wait to contribute to the industry. For now, I have my own goals for the path I chose. But ultimately, I want to learn a lot, and soooo thrilled to finally be able to give back to my country! Alhamdulillah.

Sunday, 4 June 2017


At the age of 21 (my 22nd birthday is this coming October, so not yet 22! Haha).... I am finally graduating BSc. (Hons) Quantity Surveying! I...... got a degree! It is everyone's dream to make themselves and their parents proud for each of their achievement. I am ultimately thankful, blessed, HAPPY, satisfied with this achievement. Only Allah knows the struggle each of us had to go through, so only from Him the reward would be. To have received my final result in this holy month of Ramadhan, it is nothing but a blessing, rizq (gift) that Allah has decided is the best for me. I could feel that wonderful things await in my future and I definitely can't wait for more learning processes, improvement, adventures and so much more. The #fightsong continues.

Especially... when my job is starting tomorrowwwww! I forced myself to blog today, for me to write about finishing degree, because 5th of June 2017 will be historical in my life. First day of official job! And I'm definitely so excited! Pray for meeeeeee!

Finally, Salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak and I hope it's not too late for me to again apologise for my mistakes, remind me on any unsettled debt and you may private message me if there is anything unresolved between us. May Allah accepts our deeds throughout this holy month of Ramadhan and forever inshaaAllah.

Oh, my convocation will be on 16th of July 2017! Will update an entry for that soon!

Thanks for reading, xo!