Sunday, 27 March 2016


Life has been busy!

I don't even have the time to sip my coffee now every morning. Oh, that's exaggerating, Nadzirah.  I'm bad at time management and my body is hell why I don't get it why it's always lazy! I got home from Uni quite late everyday this week. Piles of schoolworks waiting to be done. Uni is my first home already this few days. I quite don't feel very well too, also have to deal with some personality disorder in my community etc.

Also...I've been looking at my dream guy (still remember the 'S' guy?) from a distance waiting for the right time to talk to him LOL. Does anyone have any confidence tips? I just realized how wonderful he looks like actually, I mean, oh my God his smile and his eyes. Calms my nerves everytime by just looking at him. What's worse is that he's leaving Malaysia before summer. You guys just wait for my broken-heart blogpost seeing him walk away at the airport. Hahahaha.

I'm also counting days for a very interesting QS Race my friends and I will be participating on the 9th of April! Wait till I update about it. Based on the T&C I've read, the race is gonna be coooolll. It's about using public transportations and answering questions regarding our field at every station. I need to study! And by the way, I just signed my contract for 3 months internship this summer. So excited and yet, so anxious. 

Well, life has been crazy! But that's what spiced up our life, anyway. I loveeeee being busy (????). Hmmm, so positive.

Tomorrow I'll be leaving for a faculty trip which is site visiiiit. So excited to see things I've learnt in reality. Hope you guys enjoy your life despite the hectic schedule. Don't forget your loved ones. Hug and kiss them! One best thing I learnt from a good friend, she said, "Live the moment....." Don't be too worry for unnecessary stuff. Okay!

Thursday, 10 March 2016

My kind of solar eclipse

Some people said solar eclipse is not really a good sign to the nature. But I can't believe I just teared just by looking at it at a glance yesterday. Yeah, the glare might be one of the reason, but hey, do you feel me. It's the tears of happiness. The feeling when you got to witness one of the beautiful things happen outside of the Earth. It's unbelievable these kind of things do exist. Subhanallah (Praises to Allah swt).

It was a really magnificent morning. Usually around 8 am it's already quite bright with full sunlight making its way to my house's yard. But this day was different. It was quite gloomy but I could still see rays of sunlight brightened the morning. I was rushing to uni cos I overslept. But it's amazing what turned out to happen the day I started with the beautiful solar eclipse... (although I didn't get to start my day with breakfast-at-home-coffee -__-")

Did you read my previous post when I grumbled about how tiring my day was. It turned out to be really different in 360 degree the next day. I'm unsure if it's my mood or yesterday really was 'my day' . I don't know if any prayers from anyone of you who might happen to be granted by Allah to make me feel better and eased everything for me. Only Allah could do the deeds back to you. I thank you a lot. And of course, to the One who is in control of everything, many thanks and all praises to You, Allah swt.

Hereee. The picture I took during the solar eclipse. Okay it looks like a normal sun -___- of course we can't see it clearly using normal phone camera tsk tsk. Well my eyes did better job than my phone camera. I got to see the exact shape of it. Beaaauuutiful mashaAllah (this moment I began to teary). I didn't get to see the full circle, just the almost-full circle one. 

And look! It was quite gloomy right. I parked my car for a while just to capture this you know. I could see the eclipse alonggg the way from my house to uni! Thanksssss for keeping me company during the whole 10 minutes drive and be the first reason to make me smile yesterday, dear eclipse!

So, dear my beloved friends, if yesterday didn't turn out to be exactly like what you wanted it to be, just be patience and stay grateful. You never know what you're gonna have the next day. Tomorrow is a surprise, isn't it?

Let the universe do its magic....

Tuesday, 8 March 2016

Positive Vibes

Those days of feeling tired and helpless... Today is the day. 
Those days of feeling less motivated... Today is the day.
Sometimes, we just need help. We need more strength than we ever required.
People look at us like we are capable, hardworking, and independent.
But inside, only God knows how worn-out we are, craving for more strength.

I must say... That's women. You see as if they are independent. 
they need people to be there to lighten everything in their shoulders.

I got this from twitter ;

"To all independent women out there who once in a while just wanna cry because sometimes you just don't wanna be independent anymore..

Happy International Women Day."

I still remember how I was motivated with these words last year, 

"Women empower one another"

These four words which have given me more courage,
These four words which have brought me back closer to my soulmate, Allah,
These four words which have made me thankful with my life,
These four words that constantly open my heart wide to forgive,
These four words that once inspired me to let go of a guy I used to love for a woman who needed him more,
These four words that make me want to make every women in this world happy especially the woman of my life ; Ibu.

So... Again,
Happy International Women Day.
Stay who you are, and in case you are tired (like me noww), 
Stay courageous! But remember to be HAPPY. (:

Saturday, 5 March 2016

The After SPM

3rd of March that day SPM result 2015 was released. Reminds me a lot to the moment my batchmate and I in the big hall of SAMURA, coming with the same outfit theme which was white, anxiously waiting to know whether the result paid our sweats and tears throughout the two years struggling together. It was a very good memory as for our batch that time in SM Sains Muar, we managed to   bring up SAMURA's name again and at the same time remained as Sekolah Berprestasi Tinggi. We were called the "Batch of Redemption" at 2012 (the whole year we're taking SPM), and we did it as the name given to us. We managed to 'redeem' better achievement, top 10 in SBP ranking, despite the fact that we have the most number of students sitting for SPM that year among other SBPs which was about 320 something. It wasn't easy for all the teachers, especially. Thank you so much, dearest Teachers :)

After a few years, things have changed anyway. We all now went in separate ways. Well, there are lots of things I learnt throughout the life after SPM result was out, until now. There are two things I'd really like to share with my brothers and sisters out there who've just received SPM result, whether they reached your expectations or otherwise, here I'd like to say :

If your result does not reach your expectation, YOU will see a brighter side of your future, something better is planned for you. Jangan pedulikan makcik pakcik dok tanya-tanya, compare-compare kau dgn sepupu lain cakap cam ni, "La, dapat tu je ke?" Hello, makcik, pakcik? Get ready guys to open their eyes wideeeeee. Maybe not as soonest, time has their own way to make things happen anyway, inshaaAllah your highest achievement does not stop after SPM. You have wayyyyyy many things to achieve in your Uni, Master, PhD, Career, Family and Life.

I have friends who did not make it well in SPM, but I saw them happy doing things they never expected to do now. I'm so proud of them! They have travelled the world wayyy more than myself and that's so impressive. From their story, they all wanted straight As / A+s to become doctors, engineers etc. But little did they know the less As result of theirs actually lead them to something they'd really really love to do, and in the best way, what Allah knows the best for them. Allah is the Most Knowing. You just have to trust Him and pray for guidance a lot.

 If your result is very good and okay you're happy but you are lost in deciding your future and thought that SPM result is not useful in this competitive world, you're wrong. Jangan pedulikan sangat senior-senior cakap, "Ala, setakat SPM, tengoklah nanti universiti macam mana." 

I know, nowadays we are all driven to study abroad and that's our main expectation especially if you got straight As. We can do so many things that we lost in direction of where to go :
Studying abroad :  too expensive
Getting loan : too competitive 
Asking for parents' sponshorship : don't want to trouble parents
Seeking private company sponsorhsip : they don't sponsor for the course you want
Studying in public Uni(s) : you don't prefer

I kindly would like to advice you to think : What kind of working environment you'd like to be in the future? Are you passionate enough? If you're not, are you okay to find ways to gain it? And most importantly ;
What do you want to do to contribute to the world, country, religion, nation, family, and not to forget, yourself? Look at your result slip and think. Some people say, at the end, you're born to just pay the bills and die. 

To my dearest juniors whether you've good or less-than-your-expectation result, actually, at the end, after all the hardworks, when you're about to take your last breath, you will think : What did I really do to LIVE. Did I really live. And you will feel nothing but the best if you know you've contributed enough to the world, to those people in need, and if in Islamic way, to gain Allah's redha and blessings.

Back to the part when some seniors might say that SPM is just SPM, even good result won't help you to survive this world. What I have to say here is that I was thinking the same thing too. I thought the good result was useless up to my PASUM (Foundation in Science at UM) days. I wanted to be so many things like Doctor, Entrepreneur, Politician (hahaha), Quantity Surveyor etc... Too ambitious I think. Being overly ambitious is useless too adik-adik. Haha. Stay focus!

Back in pasum days, I went through hard times surviving but alhamdulillah I did well at the end. I really wanted to be a Doctor actually but I did not apply for any medical course when applying for UPU (because to me, if I were to do medicine, I wanna do it in RCSI or UM), instead I applied for something else. This was actually because my CGPA during the first semester in pasum (they require 4.00 cgpa for medical course in UM and it's really hard to get) wasn't good enough for UM medical course. I have the feeling that I wasn't going to do degree in UM. I also tried another interview (can't remember what uni) in India for medical course but unsuccessful cos I wasn't a 4.00 student in pasum :(

Then, I got offered by UM doing the course I applied, but it was after I was really determined to go and hence already registered in Heriot-Watt University Malaysia in Putrajaya (the first batch as it was just opened), I fell in love with the Uni since the first time my father showed it to me in advertisement in Star newspaper, until now. :) 

So, before I officially started my undergraduate programme in September 2014, a number of emails hit my inbox and some of them are scholarship offers. The annual fee for HWUM is quite costly as this Uni is Scotland-based. I really don't want to let my Dad pay for the expensive fees so I went to seek for scholarship. One of the scholarship offer was YTL. It was the scariest (but realllyy beneficial) experience in my life. The moment I sat down facing the interviewers, the first sentence came out from one of them was, "This is not a normal interview you usually do, but THIS, is your job interview." Wth I was only 18 man haha but it was a really good interview though. After two interview sessions (1 hour for first session, 1 hour and 1/2 for second session, it's a second chance cos I failed the first one hehe), I made it till the end. However, the highlight of this interview relates back to my blogpost is that during my second interview, they mentioned this, "Based on the first interview, you've failed cos you seemed to not have any passion in construction at all. But to look back to your SPM result, it's really really good. You're smart. It'd be so good to have a person like you here." I previously almost cried during the inteview session but this sentence somehow strengthened my gut back, until the very second of NOW. I never thought the SPM result was useful and might be one of the factors they accepted me to be sponsored with full scholarship in hwum. The guy who said that was so nice too, he gave a lot of useful advices and it really helped me to remain strong in accepting where I'm at now.

I'm happy cos YTL is not merely a small company, I could learn a lot from them throughout my working years there cos I was basically bonded with them for 5 years after graduation. Some people say I'm doing QS because my dad doing QS too. It was definitely the most incorrect statement ever. After praying a lot for guidance from Allah, I knew and felt that the decision to study QS in hwum is the best for me. Of course sometimes I doubt, meanwhile feeling stupid in this new thing I'm learning, but it's really really interesting if I look at the brighter side. 

Remember when I said I also wanted to be an entrepreneur? QS is the platform now, guysss. QS is in construction line, we also learn business management, investment, property thing and everything. I never thought I'd love these stuff more than I love Chemistry, Physics etc... 

So, jangan pandai-pandai cakap result spm tak pakai dah, buang dalam tong sampah, bye bye. Haha.

In spite of this lengthy post, don't give up and never lose faith. You will see brighter side of your future. Just keep going, okay? Future is different for everyone. Not necessarily you need to focus on studying medicine, dentists (but if you're doing this now, it's already very impressive! :) ). There are soooo many things you haven't explored in this world yet. Based on what I've read in news and what my father told me is that Malaysia currently needs more brilliant youngsters to contribute in other fields than those fields mentioned above. Go for business, construction, technology, arts, science and many more. You'd make your extraordinary future, inshaAllah !