The Ramadhan LOVE

"Allahuakbar Allahuakbar..." The echo of Azan for breaking fast time today embarks the official end of Ramadhan this year (24/6/2017). My heart sank. The month of mercy and forgiveness has officially left us. The month that I can count on for me to seek for more forgiveness than usual, to look forward for laylatulqadr, and to be at the state where I feel the closest to Allah.

This year, Ramadhan has been a little bit different for me.  It taught me something more than the previous years ever did.


On the first day of Ramadhan this year, I didn't know what I was actually really looking forward to. I wasn't even so excited to celebrate it. But I was actually looking for something. Something that would take me to another level of a person I can be, someone better, someone who acknowledges the beauty of this holy month, someone who understands more about Islam, and someone who yearns for Allah's love even more. Yes. That's actually what I wanted.


But I had no idea what should I do. I didn't even have official list of Ramadhan goals. But I kept one thing in mind -- I wanted to do my best. I wanted to be close to Allah as much as possible.


Our/My Ramadhan journey surely has its ups and downs. I struggled a lot to be someone who is more patient, more forgiving and more kind. On the other hand, I encountered so so so many blessings and beautiful truth about the world of my surrounding.


As far as I could remember, this Ramadhan taught me :

1) To be a better example of a Muslim to those who do not understand and/or misunderstand  the practice and faith in Islam.

2) To be someone who understands that us, humans came from different background, different experiences, and different personality and then only would we understand why they act in a way that is uncomfortable and unfamiliar to us. (and ... I am still struggling with this) :(

3) To put effort in "progressing" than seeking for "perfection". Ultimately in worshipping Allah through both wajib and sunnah practices.


I was and still moved with the experiences that came to teach me and three of them are as above. They took me back to my intention on the first day of Ramadhan -- to do my very best. and to be closest to Allah as possible.  He gave me experiences that made me think and reflect a lot. Although they are not necessarily sweet experiences, but the way the experiences slapped me on my face or gave butterflies in my stomach are nothing compared to the outcome of them, to help me grow and change my thinking.


Now that Ramadhan left with lessons for me to learn, may all of us could put effort and remain steadfast in doing our best to be a better version of a human and ultimately, a Muslim. :)

And.. thank you Allah for the Ramadhan love. You love us so much that you heard me, even when I didn't ask things from You verbally :)

(Photo of my favourite mosque of the decade : Masjid Cyberjaya)

Celebrating the arrival of Syawal, the victory month of Muslims, I sincerely apologise for any wrongdoings from the bottom of my heart. May Allah blesses all of us, accepted our deeds throughout the Ramadhan, and take us again to next Ramadhan. Amin!



p/s : Currently sleepy but insisted in posting this entry hence a short one. Thanks for reading!

My kind of solar eclipse

Some people said solar eclipse is not really a good sign to the nature. But I can't believe I just teared just by looking at it at a glance yesterday. Yeah, the glare might be one of the reason, but hey, do you feel me. It's the tears of happiness. The feeling when you got to witness one of the beautiful things happen outside of the Earth. It's unbelievable these kind of things do exist. Subhanallah (Praises to Allah swt).

It was a really magnificent morning. Usually around 8 am it's already quite bright with full sunlight making its way to my house's yard. But this day was different. It was quite gloomy but I could still see rays of sunlight brightened the morning. I was rushing to uni cos I overslept. But it's amazing what turned out to happen the day I started with the beautiful solar eclipse... (although I didn't get to start my day with breakfast-at-home-coffee -__-")

Did you read my previous post when I grumbled about how tiring my day was. It turned out to be really different in 360 degree the next day. I'm unsure if it's my mood or yesterday really was 'my day' . I don't know if any prayers from anyone of you who might happen to be granted by Allah to make me feel better and eased everything for me. Only Allah could do the deeds back to you. I thank you a lot. And of course, to the One who is in control of everything, many thanks and all praises to You, Allah swt.

Hereee. The picture I took during the solar eclipse. Okay it looks like a normal sun -___- of course we can't see it clearly using normal phone camera tsk tsk. Well my eyes did better job than my phone camera. I got to see the exact shape of it. Beaaauuutiful mashaAllah (this moment I began to teary). I didn't get to see the full circle, just the almost-full circle one. 

And look! It was quite gloomy right. I parked my car for a while just to capture this you know. I could see the eclipse alonggg the way from my house to uni! Thanksssss for keeping me company during the whole 10 minutes drive and be the first reason to make me smile yesterday, dear eclipse!

So, dear my beloved friends, if yesterday didn't turn out to be exactly like what you wanted it to be, just be patience and stay grateful. You never know what you're gonna have the next day. Tomorrow is a surprise, isn't it?

Let the universe do its magic....